I Disappeared for 3 Weeks and Everything Happened

Dear Diary, 

    Okayyyy so I may have accidentally abandoned this blog for like three weeks.

    In my defense, I feel like I lived approximately six months of life during those three weeks.

    I went to Italy. My sister got married. I came home emotionally exhausted. School continued to school. My love life somehow became even more confusing than it already was. I got pulled over for the first time. I went out with new people. I cried, overthought, distracted myself, changed my mind approximately 500 times, and somehow October showed up in the middle of all of it.

    So… hi. I’m back. ♡

    There is genuinely so much I want to write about that I don’t even know where to begin. Part of the reason I haven’t posted is because every time I thought about updating the blog, I felt like I needed to explain EVERYTHING that happened first. And then the list kept getting longer.

    I think I’m officially giving up on trying to tell the story perfectly.

    Instead, consider this my little season recap before we get into the episodes.

    First of all: ITALY!!!

    The entire reason for the trip was my sister’s wedding, which deserves its own post because there is absolutely no way I can summarize that whole experience in one paragraph. It was beautiful, chaotic, emotional, exhausting, and very us. I’m still processing the fact that my sister is literally married.

    Then I came home…and somehow my life immediately turned into a completely different genre.

    Without getting into the entire saga yet, things with Lawyer Guy got weird. Really weird. And confusing. And unfinished. If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you already know that “unfinished and unclear” is basically my personal version of psychological warfare.

    There are so many thoughts I have about that situation that I think it needs its own post too. Maybe several.

    I’ve also gone out with other people since then, which has been interesting considering my brain has apparently decided that moving on and thinking about the same man constantly are activities that can happen simultaneously.

    Love that for me!

    Meanwhile, I’m still in school, my 22nd birthday is coming up, Halloween season has officially begun, and I’m trying very hard to redirect some of the energy I’ve spent overthinking other people back toward myself.

    So that’s where I’ve been.

    A wedding, a questionable love life, several emotional crises, school assignments, random dates, and one traffic citation later…

    Keke is back online. ♡

    xoxo, Keke♡